lovedd-

(:

2006-01-25T18:58:00.000+08:00

(:

friday sqd outing. BUGIS! sqdmates i love u guys! (:

cant wait for friday! i think it'll be fun. =]

2006-01-21T13:30:00.000+08:00

(: np ytd. training was quite okay. flagstaff people made it to 4 min for round lash. had a little bit of problem but i guess its alright now. muster parade was so "atmosphere-less". three sec twos were promoted to lance corp. four of my sqdmates promote to corp. me, sohteng, en up to sergeant. whole parade was quite dead and moody. then uniform check was okay. really felt proud of my uniform. :D polished my boots like thrice this week la. only thing was my stupid large skirt. sent for alteration weeks ago. abit now became loose again. as in i can fit a chicken inside. -grins- was trying to hold my skirt and hoping that it would not drop la. especially when marching out from sqd to get my rank, malu!! haha. but all in all, everything was okay.
to _____: please SMILE. too much overcrowding of problems stuck in your mind can kill la. dun think so much. luvya! muacks.

2006-01-19T16:55:00.000+08:00

guess im sick too. dint go for chem remedial. everyone's catching the flu, ccc's greatly affected. i guess i caught it too. ): get well soon rachel n lu. n myself. sylvia u too!
its a weird feeling. as in, continuously getting ___. i thought i was gonecase. i've never even wore that 2 stripes one yet n now its byebye. im happy, at least i think i am. but im more shock. anyway, GO CCC! we can do it.

we tried. we managed. we will. we CAN. (: luvya darling ccc! n the 2 trainers too!

2006-01-18T20:26:00.000+08:00

it takes...
a minute to find a special person.
an hour to appreciate them.
a day to love them.
an eternity to forget them.

thank you my dear friends. dedicated to all who knows me and have touched me one way or another, all the best darlinggs! (:

2006-01-17T19:41:00.000+08:00

life hasn't been easy. instead, its really HARD.

n my injured finger is immobilised. writing weirdly.

(: mugging for tests sucks. ):

): ccc

2006-01-16T20:02:00.000+08:00

today suck totally for me. i told you i hate my ____. everyone's selfish in there. come on? think for others yeah? o levels is not only for you la?
ccc was plainly disatrous for me. i cant even tie a lashing properly n tightly. shit me, i think i suck.
tests are lining up one by one this week. im starting to topple, can i still hold on? i really doubt so. honestly, i miss the past 3 years. juniors seem so innocent and carefree whereas im bounded by ropes of thickness 100mm.
a little tip to those stressed ups: talk to ur juniors. they make you laugh cause they're funny. and at least they aren't selfish like some others around you. 2006 just ain't gonna be good for me.

):

2006-01-15T22:14:00.000+08:00

its really shocking to know of someone who speaks opp. from what they think. fake. that's what i think. getting ____ over something that is almost nothing and then wanting people to ______ you. this is what i called psychological problems. and finishing MORE stuff than others dun make you superior. teasing others when it applies to you only proves that ure a LOSER. nothing wrong with infatuation. you're a great ACTRESS. continue your acts, hypocrites are what i hate. i have more commitments than you, more stress to handle than you, so stop complaining and neh-ing to me.

i'll appreciate that effort.

its just a JS _________. if that is infatuation to you, go clean ur eyes.

4 purity

2006-01-15T16:11:00.000+08:00

its really like years ago since i came online. past few weeks was a total different me. began school, everything was alright. just the "sec four" word dumped on me wasn't so. buried myself almost in studies. everyday was just books and TESTS and np. life's quite deprived for me. trainings for ccc started, first one was very bad. second one was better. the sprit of our bond kinda ignited. ccc really rocks. i hope i can still hold out till Os. its difficult balancing ccc trainings which takes up 6 to 9 hours per week and tests which comes in dozens every week too. remedial for me is every day from monday to thursday. with friday being my cca. i think i rock. or should i say im gonna fall soon.

im gonna mug. mug and mug and mug. i wun forget my promise to mug with ya. but first, finish ur piling homework la. (: my Os and your As. oh gosh, we must pia!!

lastly, i shall promise myself that internet would be off bounds to me if i remained online for more than 5 hours. (:

cheers everyone! Os is right ahead. jiayous! oh, and to those having As too, jiayou!!

2006-01-05T08:22:00.000+08:00

my home internet died. using the school's one now. so shit.

past few days was just entirely tiring for me. im very sleepy. everyday staying back for np stuff. sick and tired liaos. orientatation in a few days. TIRED.

2005-12-31T20:25:00.000+08:00

last day of year 2005. -sobs-

shut myself at home for the past few days except ytd. slacking myself away. school is starting soon and im damn bored by it.

oh. and i cant stand people who sink themselves into _________ when they are not at all. or when its over minor stuff. their main purpose is just to attract attention la.

this is my attitude. if you dislike then too bad. and dun ask me anything about this post. i dun wan entertain.

shit YOU.

2005-12-29T22:25:00.000+08:00

CONGRATULATIONS KOH SZE HUI JOANNA.

oh mann. this is supposingly the attitude that i must have knowing that im in CCC. i dun like the name of it. ccc sounds like "see? sissy." dots. i love campcraft alot. but i just dislike the stress of having to study at the same time too. ): sadsad.

OH! nonono. im HAPPY. <-- note tt this is a FULL STOP. not a EXCLAMATION mark. :P

im going crazy. yesh, i am crazy. bought alot of stuffs these 2 days. im really broke now. and i wan my money back from my class n my cca. owe me altogether almost 100 bucks.

2005-12-28T20:46:00.001+08:00

a little warning to SOME peeps out there:

some ________ wouldn't accept your "attitude" online. so dun play around and act friendly. im quite alright but some people aren't. (: -crosses fingers-

anyway, my whole fam is finally overseas! yay! sis gt chalet and im alone at home!! (: so fun. called up a few numbers today to find out about zinc plates. really dislike that rude rude woman. pissed me off la. @#$%^&* go eat shit. =p

2005-12-28T20:46:00.000+08:00

2005-12-27T19:24:00.000+08:00

i'll be alone at home from tomorrow onwards!! yay!! finally my whole family is going overseas. dun understand la, overseas very fun meh?? i prefer to stay in singapore. (:

board is finally up. just left with plastic wrap.
#o1: dartboard looks "eggy"
#o2: diary looks "pageless"
#o3: photos dates back to 2001?

oh mann la. browse through photos. i know im bad to say this, but i still wanna say (*ahahas) some people look really DIFFERENT from last time. hohoho!! (: its fun looking at such ________ people la. hahas. posing for the cam as if you're some stars just looks funny when developed out. -opps- lucky im not one. *hinthint*

its like suddenly a big burden jus slides off my shoulder. yay! (: np was okay today. my comm was left with only me, steph, jiayin n meiling. did up the board quite efficiently. i really love it.

keep proposing to ma'ams alot of stuff today. can see they very "irritated" -uh-oh-.. hahas. i was irritated too la, keep proposing so ma fan. =p and i agree now that my previous dartboard looked like an egg. opps!

everyone was nice today, CIs, sir, practically everyone. hahas. and to _____: ur question was really funny la, and i dunno how to answer u. u can go ask the cis lol. since ure so interested. (:

im tired now. bye. (: and oh ya, i really didn't hear much from outside. only laughters. (:

2005-12-26T19:53:00.000+08:00

my whole day was just tv and np board. ): boring life.

tired. np tomorrow. hope things will go on smoothly.

2005-12-25T19:26:00.000+08:00

MERRY X'MAS!!

stucked at home today. tomorrow gonna go school do up the center board again. so sleepy now. -yawns- woke up at around 1pm today la. so pigg. then did the headings for board and cut them out. such a WONDERFUL christmas mann. -grinns-

*ilu

2005-12-24T23:44:00.000+08:00

MERRY X'MAS

out the whole day. tired and sleepy. shall switch the comp off once i finish blogging. christmas eve today. ditn do much today lol.

oh, and im repeating this for the last time,"stop irritating me with ur stupid questions. u can go ask them if u dare to."

anyway, received some more gifts via mail this morning. dar, ben, and cliques, luvya guys too. i'll get in touch with jen soon. i really love that big big furry thing. (: i too hope that rj is doing fine over at states too. miss him!!

merry x'mas everyone!! luvya all!! muacks muacks.

to my besties, sqdmates, pub comm, cis and sec ones n twos juniors, merry x'mas!! (: though ytd the pizza tasted funny, am glad that the unit enjoyed it ytd. (: luvya all.

and last thing, bye mr imran. (: we'll miss u. thanks for ur words of advice, i'll remember those things you said. you really rock. -smiles-

christmas party in sch?/

2005-12-23T19:58:00.000+08:00

i love publicity comm!! cos they really rock my day today. (:
i love the CIs!! cos they dint reject anything i proposed today. (:
i love mahmah!! for her very touching to bits letter. (:
i love ___ & ___!! for their cute piggy. (:
i love steph!! for her very cute gift. (:
i love myself!! cos my art seems to have improved. (:

i think i can do it and i will do it. i love knots n lashings. n tent pitching and i think im good at it. i wun mind joining. perhaps its just stress that shut me up totally? but i definitely wun be those kind that will pon all the trainings. cos im nice. (: my swollen ego definitely subsided afterthe burst.

was kinda feeling low in the morning before activity. then began on board stuff and then had briefing for ccc. was traumatised at a point of time due to some overheated atmosphere. prep was alright, my comm improved alot. yay! i love them to bits mann. though quality of work was not that perfect, effort was clearly seen and proven. (:
christmas party. pizza came late. laming our heads off. exchanged gifts. got this erm, funny but kinda cute lamp. pizza tasted horrible. was told imran's leaving. final verdict would be some will smile while some will frown. dun really know what to say, but he's one teacher whom i can talk to easily. so gong.
drills. new timing's weird. ML neh come. i was timer. "CUT" sounds weird from me, no force de. awww.. and my skirt's 360 degrees turnable. ahaha.
gave the gifts out. evelyn left. couldn't give her. gave the rest. said smt i shouldn't said. uh-oh. me and my naughty naughty mouth. slap slap. ): crapped at macs. becca, xiang, ping, jess, enid, me.

im pissed off at someone. she rock totally. irresponsible. i'll survived through without you, cos i believe in myself, and my darlingg sqdmates who HELPED me although they dint had to.

i love my squadmates. but i hate my _____. =p

xiang & ping: u two can do it. yays! u guys rock la, i promise i'll help in every way that i can so dun be stress up k?
all ncos: jiayous!! especially sylvia n mahmah kaes! u two are good good ncos so keep on gng hor!
admin peeps: we should be happy that we're admin side la. the fielders are having a difficult time trying to organise things and get them right, so as sqdmates we should help each other out mah. so i seriously dun wanna see any peeps ______ again and being so li3 zhi2 qi4 zhuang4 when telling others that you ___. please remember that whenever you ____, definitely someone would be affected greatly by you and consequences can be very big, so DUN THROW YOUR SQDMATES BEHIND AND LEAVING THEM TO ORGANISE EVERYTHING.

thats all i wanna say. and i think i've grew more matured. cos i know the differences between ______ and ______. - grins -

2005-12-22T23:01:00.000+08:00

bad mood kills.

went kovan with becca to get the rest of the gifts. "banana" is a nice shop. got my nike pouch ytd and this morn received a gift from my long lost darling. (: so nice of her.

i shant say anything cause its her problem.

2005-12-21T19:43:00.000+08:00

this is my attitude.
dun like it? just scram.
dun waste ur time _____ me.
im jus _____, if u think so.
2 or 3 _____ doesn't mean anything to me.
stop acting _____ if u _____ me.
i hate you.

yesterday:

reached causeway point at around 9 plus in the morning. did hmwk with becca n xiang while waiting for sylvia. then walked around and bought 3 christmas gifts. all PRACTICAL ones. (: then walk walk took neos, then home at around 3 or 4 plus. then bus home with becca. walked around hougang mall alone to buy the other stuffs then home. spent my whole night doing cards. went out for a while to get materials then home to start on it. some unpleasant things happened and i got abit saddened by it. then called kz for the proposal. did cards till 1 plus then went orh-orh.

today:

called hoo for the proposal. then went popular to get the stuffs. plastic bag was even larger than me. i look obiang carrying that plastic bag of papers and materials for np board. so shitty. reached home and started on cards again. sending 5 out tomorrow, and the rest giving on friday.
lately, it seems that many things are happening to me and people around me. unpleasant things just keep occuring and its really scary. sometimes really feel like breaking down. like what dar said, IMH is near my hse. transportation fees damn low. -_-"

np on friday. dunno what will happen. dun feel like going. im tired and sick of everything. its still 7 more months to go.

2005-12-19T17:39:00.000+08:00

fever subsided last night le. went sch this morning. then went to hm walk walk and kinda decided on e stuffs to buy for christmas. bought some crappy stuffs for myself too. then xiang went to meet ping. me n becca then walk walk le jiu go sit down do hmwk. jus came home not long ago. tired.

linfeng

2005-12-18T18:26:00.000+08:00

i HATE this feeling. makes me so sad. byebye darlingg. i'll miss you loads.

church was alright. they were good entertainers. feeling alot happier except for that tinge of ____ lingering in me. im obsessed with my own thoughts, and im disappointed with _____. my eyes are sore, not enough sleep. but some dun even care.

a promise is a promise, breaking it means enlarging the gap between us

2005-12-17T16:20:00.000+08:00

had a bitching conference with sylvia, becca and xiang last night on my hp. my phone died after sylvia went off and all four lines got cut. bought my sis textbooks at popular. walked about hougang mall ALONE. thats really scary, cause someone stood me up halfway. chatted with sylvia on phone. was trying to shop for ____ gifts. failed.

still having abit of ______ feeling. dunno, hope to feel better tomorrow.

sending LF off at airport. then church with sylvia n en n pan.

i'll be happy. i hope.

2005-12-16T13:06:00.000+08:00

went to school to settle some np stuffs. becca pei2 me there. she finally came back from xiamen! oh mann. anyway, feeling better now le. (: thanks everyone.

MUACKX!

2005-12-15T15:18:00.000+08:00

to kz, xw, chuan, sylvia, jess: thanks alot. (:

sorry ma'am.

2005-12-14T18:50:00.000+08:00

SORRY. ):

uh-oh. money, money money.

2005-12-14T16:47:00.000+08:00

had prep. then played ball. blue and cool grps again lol. me, ping, xiang, awyong, crys n xh one grp. sylvia, jess, sohteng, en, KKB n NNP one grp. they very very mean pok. then after game went back np room clear up. then left e school feeling quite bad n sad.

SHIT ME. i said i suck.

thanks

2005-12-14T06:06:00.000+08:00

to sylvia, jess, kz, chuan, xw, pan, rachel, lu, jas, gor and jolene:
thanks for ur encouragement and whatsoever. (: i definitely feel better now. love you guys loads! muackX! (:

sqdmate n junior

2005-12-13T15:56:00.000+08:00

actually had a very long post. descided not to post it after reading _____'s blog.

jus wanna say that..

i've lost. and i'll know my own ______ (if that's what you ____ think).

i just hate myself. sucky.

im just a thorough failure.

stress up

2005-12-12T23:00:00.000+08:00

been thinking alot lately. and i still feel very strongly of my stand. ever since ___, i've been thinking about this issue umpteen times.

i am what i am. i dun need people to change me so whatsoever. i dun care how _____ think of me at all, whether im fake, or a sucker-up, or my attitude sucks hell. i dun give a damn at all. i had enough of all these.

its really tiring to be thinking of this issue the whole day, especially when the party involved is/are _______. pretentious, fake, slacker, irresponsible; if these are what i am in _____ eyes, i can only succumb to fate.

i dun need to suck up to people to have friends. dun ask em on msn why this and why that. or why im close to blahblahblah. its lame. and really stupid.

i feel cowered, i feel disrupted, and im going crazy. if sometimes my attitude appears sucky and you feel disturbed. tell me straight in the face. bitching about ain't the solution. i dun hate you ___, but i cant stand it when you ___ just appear to be nice while behind my back, bitching session turns on.

my views of you ___ took a drastic change ever since ___. i said before, im sensitive to this kind of issues. i live my life examining people's faces if that's what you think. happy, pissed off, irritated. its just one look and it unveils.

stop giving me more stress can? i've had enough of ___. i dun like my ___. i hate ___. but in the first place, can i say ___?

i dun understand why some fakers can just make you _____ feel that,"ohh..she's _______" and to you ___, im just... SHIT? or perhaps a little toy for you ___ to meddle and play with at your fingertips?

i seriously dunno when you ____ are true and when you ____ are fake.

i can only say now that, im disappointed and sad. very very sad. i'll keep my distance away from you ___. sorry.

class outing.

2005-12-12T21:24:00.000+08:00

just came home from class outing. tired and sleepy now. shall go bathe after this post and then come back online to edit the np website. was doing up the acheivements n about page of the web this morning at like 6 plus am? kuku me.

i will miss linfeng. canada is SOOOOOOOO damn far from singapore la. haish, will really miss her alot alot alot!!!

to linfeng: thanks for being such a great friend. the comforting words we blabbered to each other meant alot, i'll miss you alot and so will three purity be. but please dun miss us, take happiness away and leave behind your sorrows and sadness, just know that you'll always have me as your friend, even if we're miles apart. thank you darling, i'll miss ya alot. muackx. (:

50th post!

2005-12-11T13:20:00.000+08:00

yay!this is my 50th post in this blog le.=]

hahas. tomorrow gonna go back school get some stuff from np room and then perhaps go for class outing at yh's condo. tuesday i think im free. wednesday gotta go back school to do up the board and paste the posters and hang the banners. getting sqdmates to come down and help. think the CIs coming down too. and i bet wednesday will be a very long bitching session for us. =P

netball n bb

2005-12-10T00:05:00.000+08:00

MAGGOTS. they're really scary creatures. and i officially declare that crystal MA'AM is really damn cool. firstly, she cant smell the stench exiting from QM room and secondly, she saved our day by killing all the maggots. :) yay!

but sadly to say, some very nice person has forgotten about the apple juice carton and so, on wednesday when we return to NP room, crystal would have to start on her killing spree again. hahas. right kz MA'AM???
oh, anyway, so sorry i cant accompany you to ur new church. i know you'll feel very lonely, cause you'll miss me!! =] yay! hahas. JJ. anyway, i shall and i can entertain you with smses to keep you away from thoughts of loneliness. but if i were you, i rather not go than go alone cause its so WEIRD!! then somemore ren2 shen1 di4 bu4 shou2 de, its really an awkward feeling. hahas. =]

had prep today. i was damn shocked with myself lah, cause i actually SCOLDED my comm. but actually, i wasn't that piss or whatsoever, just disappointed. i've been like trying to get things done yet "a group of some people stoning away" was what i get in return. 3 hrs to think, and what did i get? shant say. ): but anyway, let them off at 1.30pm. then continued wrapping posters and thinking of ideas. then propose to CIs, approve liaos.

yay!played netball n basketball with those remaining behind. long time never touch that ball le, hahas. a total of 8 of us. lao3 shao4 xian2 yi2. went to basketball court to play. awyong did a funny action - bouncing the ball during netball. -_-" fine la, she keeps doing weird weird actions. so she's called auntie by CIs. [oh.. so sad..so mean of them]. and i bet she has a photogenic memory cause she seems to know the price of everything in supermarket. hahas [oh mann, mean pok pok.] then play n play. and i finally realised, being short has pros and cons too. and another thing that i realised was that .......................... shant say. =] heehee.

around 7 plus that time, sat at the forum top there. a group of gils bitching about people. [ SO MEAN!!!] yeah, n i mean myself too. hahas. felt so bitchy la. then went off back to NP room, then went out of school. we almost had to climb over the gate cause it wasn't open [from what we see from far], and i cant believe that we would really have to do it if it was locked. luckily it wasn't. hahas. =] then accompanied sylvia home. the rest of them went for dinner. dint go with them cause i'll feel weird. hahas. bet they were bitching about me lor, right kz's PIGGY??? =]

new purplish skin

2005-12-08T11:00:00.000+08:00

woke up at 7 plus this morning and decided to change blogskin. so i took 3 hours plus and started designing this blogskin. 1st time took so long la, but im quite happy with it. =] elder sis went for camping this morning and younger sis still in hospital. at home only got my two very mischievous brothers to accompany me, so boring! going to the hospital later, perhaps fetching my sis cos the nurse said she maybe can go home today. :)
gotta start painting posters later after this post le. if not tomorrow sure die. haiz. i think im so damn shi1 bai4 la, abit other comm dun have to come back for EXTRA activities but my comm have to? and its the 2nd time le. shit me lol. I SINCERELY APOLOGISES TO MY COMM PEOPLE, SORRY!!!
oh. there's something i always wanted to say but forgot to TYPE in since STC. that is... I HATE THAT FREAKING OLD DISGUSTING INCONSIDERATE MARRIED WOMAN WHO THINKS PEOPLE JUST LOVE ACTING IN FRONT OF HER!!! i hate her!!!! dunno why some sqmates love her lor? she's a total BITCH!!! always acting liek you care but in actual fact, you're nothing but jus a vase? a broken one somemore!! stand there and take pose nia! you're not even the principal lor, go eat shit la. who cares about your children, NONE of them are cute!! AT ALL!! you yourself look freaking FUNNY and stop giving us long speeches and telling us to change this and that and picking on us!! your words are like FARTING GAS TO ME, they mean nothing AT ALL!! and next time please remember to face the mirror and repeat what you're going to tell us in front of the mirror and reflect upon yourself, whether or not you yourself can do it, or have done it. but until now, i guess you're just too timid to face your true self in the mirror right? just get lost and roll far far away from us can? quit your job, u aren't even fit to be what you are, you're just disgracing us!!!

becca's away in xiamen. i'll miss her. hahas. :D

MOVIE

2005-12-07T13:36:00.000+08:00

gonna drop by at the hospital later. stupid doctor dun let my sis come home. bet she's feeling bored and lonely there. ): im stoning at home now. damn bored lol. jus received awyong's msg regarding my comm de stuff. haiz. PUBLICITY COMM!!! posters all not done yet. SHIT me la. was thinking of doing everything myself, but awyong ask me propose a date for prep again. die la, i think i suck as an IC la. until now not even one proper one done? haiz. =[
class outing. im still planning. but definitely at yuhui's hse. in woodlands.
christmas is coming! yay! =] still thinking of what to get for presents. and i still owe thousands of people their bdae gifts. =P so dead.
23rd dec got NP activity. that day got prep cum party cum farewell dinner. hahas. so cool. 3 in 1 activity. walked around with becca yesterday and kinda got some idea of what im buying. and this time round, i definitely hope no one will wrap a bunch of pens and treat it as a christmas gift. SO DIAOS LA!!! i shall be a nice nice person and buy a nice nice thing for whoever that is going to get my gift. yay! i rock.

to my 2 very very NICE seniors KZ n XW: im always that nice, moreover, its me, becca, sylvia n xiang sharing. hmmm, let that be erm, something for giving us such a nice stc. :D dun forget our very very nice christmas gift hor!! =] lalala. - grins -

tent pitching notes.

2005-12-06T15:27:00.000+08:00

met up with becca, ping and xiang in school. pitched a tent for photo-taking for my tent pitching notes. =] xiang left earlier, leaving only me, becca and ping to finish pitching a "6-MEN TENT". wad rubbish la, first time pitch tent only got these few people lol, so diaos. after tent was pitched, then took photos le, then three of us stoned on the track for 40 minutes. then we cleared up. and for goodness sake, my QM room now stinks like some salted fish? and its in a DAMN big mess!! broken fan, pungent smell, messy stuffs, EWWWWWWW!!!
then went out of school. ping went home, me and becca went hougang mall. walked about for a while and bought identical bracelets! stars are so damn nice. =] then becca bought a nail buffer then we walked around somemore then went mrt station to return becca's comics. then off to KOVAN!!
at kovan, jus as we entered the center, SOMEONE called me and ask me to treat her to movie. and im supposed to go down all the way back to ANG MO KIO to treat her to movie when im already in KOVAN. and im supposed to treat her darlingg piggy too. so i shall be nice and me and becca started thinking of ways to get benefits from them. -muahahaha-
then i promised them we'll treat them to their movie at half price la, but jus now on the way home, me and becca decided we shall treat the both of them the full movie tickets since we're nice people. hahas. but we haven tell them yet.
walked about lol, bought this very nice PIG box at mini toons and a necklace strap at some gift shop. called sylvia and made a decision to buy NICE NICE stuffs for the CIs on christmas. reason i shant state, but for the time being, its because we're NICE PEOPLE.
oh and yarr, i ate at yoshinoya. their food SUCKS core lor!! wad chicken meal? rubbish la, jus some disgusting meat and plain rice and some stupid cherry drink and coleslaw. had a disgusting lunch. -pukes-
long time never come out gaigai le. actually im quite broke lol, NP owes me around 40 bucks now. better pay me back soon!!! hahas. =] bought like papers, lacquer, brushes, sulphur. cant remember everything la. but jus, everyone needs money now cause christmas is COMING!!
read the squad blog. wells, it seems that every post is there to cause tears flowing. seriously, i feel that i've came out from the camp as a totally different person now. im jus not my usual self, or perhaps its jus the commitment i feel towards np bahx. the bond between both squads definitely increased and everyone seems to be still engaging in STC. its so weird. and for sure, many people have proven themselves but many like me, hasn't done anything at all. it was jus part and parcel of NP life, and i feel that im jus like an onlooker, waiting for someone to lead me on. haiz. feeling really weird now, so indescribable.
shant say anymore le, lastly, to kezia n xuewei MA'AM, u two owe me a prezzie now. =]

smile piggies!!!

my sad sad STC

2005-12-05T13:51:00.000+08:00

yay!! finally back from STC. slept like a pig for 15 hrs ytd since 7 plus till this morning eleven plus. god la, like so PIGGGGG??!! received a call from mummy that my younger sis in hospital having operation now. her intestine got prob i think, gosh la, i was like omg? then pulled myself up from bed and washed up. then offered joss sticks to the gods lor. damn worried till i cried la. but now she's alright le. - thank god-

STC was not bad, as in not as BAD as i thought it would be. got closer to the sec twos. and i seriously think the best part of the whole camp was the last sentry duty i did with lu and char. they damn cute la. [sorry pan!] anyway, shall elaborate.

first day:
had kayaking expedition. was not bad lor, very fun. after we completed and had jus touched shore, got damn big wind and sandstorm la. then the sand keep beating onto everyone then so damn painful. and a very very nice KAYAK hit me in my knee and it was like damn painful that i cant walk? then slowly made my way back into CSSC and sat there lol. then perhaps because sit too long then got cramps. gosh la, i think i have to do operation on my leg lol. haiz. then washed up and walked to jetty to take boat to ubin. then cause my leg injured then took taxi at ubin into the campsite. felt so bad la, the whole campers all walking i cabbing? shit me can?!! then along the way was chatting with tanny ma'am. she's damn funny and nice la. then at night got bad checking then everything messed up. aiyo, it was like, hell for us. campers all morale very low le. for SOME reason la. then halfway through the night got fire drill then sentry duty got barley that was like sugar water?

second day:
morning pt. then got low obstacles. quite fun la, morale was back to high standard and everyone was cheering each other on. then had topo but my group was damn low morale. had xh ma'am n mrs hoo with us. xh ma'am very nice, she kinda tried ways to make us high, but we disappointed her. then after that walked back to jetty. then off to take chartered bus to pasir ris park. had dinner at elias park and xh ma'am bought 100 plus for the whole campers to gulp down. then walked to the park and pitched tents. took damn long to pitch lor. then me and meiling put the sulphur then something got into my eyes and it was damn pain, thought it was sulphur but it doesn't seems so. xh ma'am brought me to wash off. eye dman pain but after a while okay lor. then walked back to the tents there. along the way, had a short chat with xh ma'am. she's really nice mann, haiz, felt that we campers should have more initiative as to have someone stepping out to be the leader and get everyone to work instead of shouting here and there. then had to run one round but my leg acted up again and kz accompanied back. then washed up. dint wash up as i was resting at the door of my tent, awyong n jieyi were with me. then i heard something that made me feel not very happy lol. haiz, i guess i should have washed up instead, so that i wouldn't have heard those hurting words. if they dun believe me, then forget it, its just too bad, if i was just faking, i might as well not come for the camp. its just wasting my time and their time if this is what they feel. that whole night was so uncomfortable for me la. slept at the most inner corner then very stuffy, was like not sleeping at all. perhaps because of what i heard, haiz, jus felt very sad that night. dint really sleep till 3, 4 plus then i slept back. could heard the instructors outside. everyone in my tent was sleeping except me, had to jus bottle all my feelings inside me as i dint wanna affect those around me.

third day:
woke up and then breakfast and unpitched the tents. then went back school. returned four thousand over punishments. i cant believe i did it cause i was realy trying to keep my leg pain in me la. i jus wanna prove to ______ that i can do it and not hiding away. then pitched tents and had lunch. campers coordinated well together and pitched the tents up in less than an hour. then after that, walked to lower pierce reservoir to have sing-along session and then some drawing session. then walked back to school and prepared for outdoor cooking. some did storelist and some started on embers and some started preparing food. everyone was doing her own stuffs. campers were very united and the teamwork and spirit was shown clearly, so damn happy. then helped en to change gas canister and got myself full of gas. then had dinner and the food was all very superb. ma'ams n sirs felt that our food was like the best ever? =] -grins- then had concert, all groups was like discussing during dinner for their individual items. then me n ping was the MCs. at first only me, then i got xiang to help me, but then after that change to ping. then two of us keep thinking of impromptu stuffs to add in cause we had one hour plus but the items were all dman short. so me and ping jus crapped and crapped. then had the instructors joined in as well, the whole atmosphere was very nice and high, and everyone tried to be high and enthu. me and ping was sabo-ed into doing some funny funny stuffs lol. but i think the most attractive performance was when SENIOR CITIZEN was dancing to the tune of "opps! i did it again!". hahas, it was damn hilarious. then after concert, had to blindfold ourselves to find our own groups. then build bashas and unpitched our tents and cleared embers. then after embers were cleared we went to help in tents lol. then got plaster from char to put on my blister. then had sentry duty, me, char and lu. we went to wash the remaining tent and then had our food. ate ice cream, fried noodles, chin chow, biscuits and gassy drinks. then three of us realised we did for about one hour le, late le, so we quickly went to wake pan, awyong and jieyi up. hahas, damn funny la this part, we heard and saw many things, including two similar campers. [stares at char n lu] :D then we three squeezed onto the space in whick awyong n jieyi originally slept on. then we keep laughing and laughing cause some weird things happen. =] hahas. and we all agreed that it was our best part of the camp ever.

fourth day:
next morning woke up and had punishments till 7.20. then breakfast and cleared up. then checked stores and then built catapults and shields. was damn fun. then did punishments, ran and ran and did sit-ups and push-ups. with the campers cheering on, i held on for the whole punishment session and i was really surprised at myself. me, yuting n krystal had diarrhoea, dint say anything cos i was still thinking of those _______ words lol. haiz, yi4 xiang3 dao4 jiu4 sad. ]= haiz. then had our camp tee and then break camp lor.
stayed in macs with en, xiang, becca, enid till four, five plus. audrey, rachel, lu, char, nat, pan, krystal and beijin was there too. then chatted and then cabbed home lol.

on the whole, i feel that i've really gained alot from this camp. leadership qualities like able to think fast and act fast, caring for others, being selfless, working as a team, i've seriously understood the meaning of everything done. was glad i survived this camp, even with my "on-off" knee injury and all the broken blisters, im quite glad i survived this together with everyone. my group members char, lu, pan, joy, awyong, sohteng, jieyi. i think we rock. :D

though since the second night, i had been keeping many things to myself, i still felt happy at some times. perhaps i still need time to digest those ______ words into me bahx. still remembered i almost cried that night, haiz. feel so useless. perhaps if i could jus hold on longer, i wouldn't have heard, or if i didn't stayed at the tents, or if i jus made some noises to inform of my existence, but since what's done has already been done, i guess i'll just control myself.

was smsing kz not long ago. bet she's now still sleeping like a piggy. hahas. its quite obvious the instructors had lesser sleep than us lor, especially at pasir ris there cause they dint even have tents.

i know i wun be the same as before le. i wun say i hate _______, but it was really ________.

badminton

2005-11-30T19:03:00.000+08:00

jus came home not long ago. went to hougang sports hall to play badminton with my family. i was practically playing for like 45 mins? oh god, my hands aches now. die le, tomorrow STC!!! SHIT!!!
i damn scared now la. hands trembling. then after reading so many people's blog, im even more scared. everyone is like going "im so scared of tomorrow". oh gosh!! im damn SCARED!! recalling the 4000+ punishments that we owe. haiz. sure die during these few days de. my arms hurts, all thanks to playing badminton. haiz. good luck to me then.

sulphur

2005-11-29T16:01:00.000+08:00

singapore doesn't have that much snakes right?? erm, perhaps ubin got la, but pasir ris park wun hav snakes bahx? hahas. this is one joke that i made out of while buying sulphur today.
went back school early morning with becca to buy pe shirts and shorts and met up with sylvia to buy her books. then went to amk library to return becca's books. then we cabbed down to j8. heehee.
then at j8, saw jess's group there having discussion. the sec twos looked sad. [awww..] and the sec threes looked dead too. but got me!! yay! liven them up. =] hahas. just joking la.
then went walk walk with sylvia n becca. then ate. then went to bits n pieces with sylvia to get her chain. then we slowly went back to amk central. walk walk about. then becca bought a comic and i bought my very very nice hp chain. =]
then went to school there get slacks from peiwen then go buy sulphur. then HOME. =]

2 more days to STc. =]

prep

2005-11-28T18:57:00.000+08:00

im sitting in front of my comp now with a temerature of 38.6 degrees. feeling damn uncomfortable. hadn't eat anything for the whole day yet, only drank and drank and drank. feeling empty, feeling sick, feeling down. on the whole, im jus not feeling well.

had orientation prep today. shant say much except that i think ma'ams chose the wrong IC. ):

QM room's in a mess. haiping's not in singapore. tent pitching notes gotta be in in 3 days time after STC. no one to help me. haiz. i feel so helpless and SHI BAI!!! irritated with someone, yet cant do anything, only thing to do, thank god i hav my besties with me to aid me. luvya guys!

QM room de fan broken into half. haven tell CIs yet. shall tell after STC. wondered how it broke la. after kz n chuan left, then xiang went to lock, then before we enter, dun think got people went in lor, so weird, and scary.

went to buy sulphur. only 600g left. gotta come back tomorrow to get the other 1.8kg. uh-oh. hope my mum doesn't notice my "sickness", if not she'll condemn me.

then went to NTUC to meet up with STC grp. got other groups there. then bought stuffs and then discuss about some rubbish things. rubbish meaning about people ponning, people flirting and so on. hahas. the sec twos are damn cute.

talking about STC, my goupr basically got me, sylvia, awyong, sohteng, nataliechia, charlotte, pan, joy and jieyi. sylvia aint going. nat chia is enjoying her holidays and also avoiding us. joy leaving halfway through camp. so that leaves only 7 of us going through the WHOLE camp. has the mindset once to PON. but seeing my grp, i decided i shall be a good IC and not leave my grp in the lurch. hahas, cause my grp's damn cute. i love my grp loads.

hmm.. feeling down will really worsen my condition yeah? shall try to smile and keep myself in spirits. cause i promise this time round, im gonna make it to the camp no matter what. :D thats a promise to myself, my grp and SOME PEOPLE. :)

2-star kayaking last day

2005-11-27T12:52:00.000+08:00

ytd had the last session of 2-star kayaking. as usual, met up with sylvia, becca, siewen, shuxiang, sohteng and yuting and then went to CSSC together. went to changi beach before entering the sports club cos we reached there like 1 hr earlier? then played with the sand and the sea lol. :P we were basically like crazy woman screaming our lungs out to express our bottled up feelings. hahas, so fun, long time never go beach and scream like siao le. then after we got ourselves splashed with some water, we went on to the club. then crap and crap then started lol. went ahead with capsizing drill first, did it with sansan. she very funny la, i kayak to her and she was like,"hmm.. very confident arh, better than last time." hahas, i guess the previous time i was too busy crapping with yurong that i dint notice sansan listening to my conversation. :P then i capsize lor, and slowly peeled the spray cover off, then came up!! :D and she praised me!!! :D she said i was good, cos i dint panicked. i guess its because i slowly took off my spray cover and thus took a longer time. :)
then next was the eskimo bow. we did it with three different sets. 1st set was we edged ourselves on the kayak and try holding there, and lest we capsized, our partner would be beside us holding her kayak and acting as a "float". 2nd set was to hold on to my partner's kayak de toggle rope and then turn my own kayak until its almost capsizing and then using legs to flick myself back. 3rd set is to hold my partner' toggle rope with one hand and then capsize totally using the free hand to tap once, and then try to flick myself back to place. after finish le, sansan came to me and did with me the full eskimo bow. then i just do lor, capsize, tap, rub, thenshe passed my partner's kayak de deck to me and hey presto! i flicked myself up! :D -claps-
it was quite fun la. then after some of us did the full thing too, we went for lunch. then after we came back from lunch, we did the kayak to swimmer rescue, then carried on to doing eskimo bow for sylvia and shuxiang as they hadn't done it yet. then played in the waters and so on.. then we kayaked around lol. then went back to the sports club, cleaned up and then theory lessons then giving out of certificates, then the end. :D finally this whole thing is over.
though i kinda dislike this course, but thinking back, i guess it was quite fun though, some memories were still quite enjoyable. like the part when i got seasick during the expedition, and how i felt worse when i was on that motorboat cause it rocked like hell and many others.. and not forgetting the instructors, sansan, yurong, xiaohei, songsheng, darren, gee and charles. hmmm, and how charles and celine a-hem.. :D
on the whole, although i was quite unwilling to come fot this 2-star kayaking course, but after the whole thing ended, i really feel that it was fun afterall. so, i should now say, i dun hate kayaking anymore!! :D yay!! -grins-
anyway, STC is coming soon. 50% of fear, 40% of unwillingness and 10% of anticipation keeps drilling within me. wells, just cross my fingers and pray. GO CEREDONS! GO CAMPERS!! :D

2-star kayaking

2005-11-26T18:32:00.000+08:00

damn tired la. and very pissed off too. i was told tomorrow must hand in board design de proposal and the ideas i gave in today all went down the drain. haiz. all rejected. -pouts- haiz. and one thing for sure, im SUPER DUPER DAMN pissed with my publicity comm. ytd, i called manyu and asked her to call the comm members and tell them think of board ideas and then call me or sms me by ten pm. guess what? only stephanie told me. oh wow, seems like my comm only got steph la? monday activity they gonna get it from me lor. cos im definitely pissed up to the skies.
talking about orientation, wells, i wanna quit from publicity comm, i dun mind being IC for souvenir comm lol, since nat isn't in singapore, i dun mind taking over la. im serious, so awyong and yuting, please take this into consideration.
everything was fine lor, i was still thinking that i will bear with it and get on with my work happily, like wad i've promised some people, but the thing now is that i've been painting posters everyday this week, for some reason, i know i cant dump the painting part to my comm. im sorry to those in my comm who is really willing to dedicate and help me, but im saying this as a whole. becos of all these, i really feel useless and that in the first place, i shouldn't be an IC.
"WANTED" posters i've photostated new ones and painted and repainted them for at least four times. i really wonder when they'll be accepted. next thing, "GET IN LINE" posters, i bet they're stuck at the shelves in np room somewhere. this is my FAULT. yeah, cos i forgot to take them back. as for the "FIRE" posters, well, i've been painting fire non-stop everyday too, at least a few acceptable ones were produced.
i know i should not complain, as this is my job, and i have to learn to cope with this type of STRESS. BUT!!!! still, i feel as if im doing everything myself? especially the posters, ask my comm to paint, paint slanted? paper dirty? paint unevenly? all loads of problems keep floating up. i've had enough lol.

and to someone, for goodness sake, i told you to call everyone and pass down message, not as you to call one of them and then ask her to pass down. and you yourself did not even think of ideas for me. goodness sake? do you even know your status in the comm? stop giving me excuses for all sorts of things, and please for heaven's sake, can you like do things faster????!!! dun give me another reason to scold you lol. i've been tolerant and holding back myself from scolding you, so please dun be the first one in my years of np life to get a harsh one from ME!!!

board design!

2005-11-25T16:24:00.000+08:00

im so damnit stressed up!!! @#$%^&*

cant think of anymore ideas for board le la. so damn shi1 bai4. haiz. tomorrow got kayaking. kinda looking forward to it leh. hahas, maybe because im looking forward to eskimo bow? hehehe.. it looks quite fun leh.
SYLVIA TAN!! get well soon hor!! then you can come join us tomorrow le. i know you dun wan to capsize, but please please please try to come kaes? the instructors not as bad as you think de la. they're quite nice lor. so get well soon!! :D
REBECCA TOH!! must come arh!! leave early also nvm, jus come kaes!!! :D
XIANG!! i'll learn to cope with stress la. hahas. :D
KZ n CHUAN!! i shant complain anymore le. -grins- i'll learn to LOVE my job and do them happily. :D
PUBLICITY COMM!! monday remember to come hor!! help is greatly needed and no more crappings kaes?? must jiayous hor. we lagging behind too much le. :D

combine kayaking.

2005-11-24T18:34:00.000+08:00

should i be happy or should i be sad?
shall start on ytd combine kayaking. it was quite fun la. paired with xinyun frm sec 2 squad. she damn funny la. then both of us kinda coordinated not that bad, but we still need to start chanting "left right left right". then stupid chuan go laugh at us. bleahx! lunch was 30 min. but me, syl, en went to ask for extension. then had capsize and rescue drills after lunch. nothing went wrong except that my head damn pain, guess it was due to over-drinking of seawater. then after activity, was around 4 plus. me, awyong, liping, xiang stayed to discuss stuffs with MA'AMS. sylvia n jess stayed to wait for us. :p then discuss the orientation things la. BOARD DESIGN!! arrgh!! and chuan was so obsessed with my darling postcard letter that xiang gave me, and she was very JEALOUS. :D hahas. then when going off, found out that two very FUNNY people also watches WANG ZI BIAN QING WA. hahas, so weird. they were so crazy la. then went off from CSSC with them. when at the bridge that time, me and sylvia suddenly realised our bus stop was at the other side. stupid us. then we turned back and walk, then along the way saw the four CIs, asked us why we going back, so we told them cos we went wrong side. and they ended up laughing. :p hahas. i agree la, me n sylvia were stupid.
anyway, for orientation. all posters were rejected. which means, i gotta paint MORE posters MYSELF. haiz. stupid me. im so damn like a failure la, a failure IC. shit me. think i suck as an IC la. cant even get my comm to produce GOOd work out. haiz. D:

IM BACK!

2005-11-21T09:40:00.000+08:00

hey guys. sorry for the long wait. i've returned after a damn long break and have decided to announce some IMPORTANT stuff here. so wells, jus read on yeah?
FIRSTLY! i've decided to stop designing more skins as i've came to a conclusion that my studies suck cos im spending too much time on web. sorry to those who really loved my skins, thanks a lot for your support. my thousands over downloads were thanks to you guys. luvya loads!
SECONDLY! i'll most prob be closing down my blog by the end of this year. i mean MOST PROB. im still considering as im worried about my studies and on the other hand, i still need a place for me to vent my frustrations and also to let PEOPLE INVOLVED to know how i feel about something and most prob.. NP. im still thinking bahx.
THIRDLY! to all my squadmates and classmates who have been pushing me to go join CAMPUS SUPERSTAR, im sorry i've let you guys down. i dun wanna go for it. so sorry. :p
FORTHLY! I OFFICIALLY DECLARE I HATE MYSELF AND MY CCA. [milions of apologies to xiang, liping, awyong, chuanting, kz] i just cant bring myself to LOVE it that much. even if im given so damn loads of stuffs to do, like wad SOMEONE says, i still have to do it. so no matter how much i hate NP, i'll do my part. i PROMISE.
FIFTHLY! to those who's been missing my blog.. YAY! IM BACK!
SIXTHLY! i wanna thank my BESTIES who have stood by me when i was so damn stressed up and thanks to SYLVIA TAN's crazy blabberings about me, i've decided to bring her to IMH. and to becca, dun be so paranoid le okay? :D luvya always besties!
SEVENTHLY! i hate my form teacher. just like sylvia does. i dun care if anyone reads this, but i really hate her. she doesn't have to stress on the fact that my expected grade was supposed to be HIGH yet im getting so damn LOW. i really dislike her.
EIGHTHLY! wells, this supposingly should be for the officers n CIs to read. hmm.. please dun come hacking me when i said i dislike np. i dunno what else to say but i've already promised i'll give my best. being in a post that i dislike, i cant say anything much about how much i love this post, but however, i shall say my two rooms are so HUMONGOUS that i dunno wad to do with it. i dun have any grudges against anyone or wad, but i guess no one in the whole unit dares to write these stuffs on their PUBLIC blog.. except for me. i really hope someone will read this. yeah, and wells, i should end with i'll try my best.

feeling really down and unwell now. still having "SEASICKNESS"??!! no la, jus that i still feel myself rocking on the sea. and that painful experience of getting seasick was so intolerable. i almost vomited on that very rocky motorboat la!!! then went toilet and vomited out nothing but just water!! and i guess it included some gastric juices?! cos the water tasted slimy. -pukes- i hate kayaking. shit me. D:
and many people miss evelyn ma'am!! hahas. heard that she's working. hmmm.. hope to see her soon. as for the current CIs, i guess they're quite nice la. like everyone, they're serious in NP but kinda "siao" outside lor. hahas. shall end here le. BYE!

hiatus

2005-09-24T20:18:00.000+08:00

HIATUS

will be back after exams! :D sorry and thanks!

blogskins.

2005-09-10T19:06:00.000+08:00

damn bored today la. was designing blogskins today. submitted quite a few. yay! including this one. hahas. i like this one alot cos its simple n sweet. :D and most importantly, its black!! my colour.

Juwita Suwito - Breath Again

Have u wondered how it feels when it’s all over
Wondered how it feels when you just have to start anew
Never knowing where you’re going
When u face the brand new day
And it used to be that way
Now I just closed my eyes and say
I just wanna breathe again
Learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little
Cry a little
Live a little more
I just wanna face the day
Forget about the wars of yesterday
Maybe if I hope a little
Try a little more
I’ll breathe again
Starting out again it’s never easy
Disappointments come and go
But life still moves on
With the bit of luck
It’s a brand new start
That might just work my way
No need to walk away
Don’t wanna live a life’s replay
Things would work out fine
If you can’t find the courage to look past the night
To see the break of dawn

derrick blogskin.

2005-09-08T23:18:00.000+08:00

heya. i can log into blogskins.com again. ta-das, so i shall put up my blogskins here lor. just finish this derrick's blogskin. its dedicated to all derrick fans!! any fans interested tag at my board n leave behind ur blog address and i shall send u the whole coding. :D luvya!!

2005-09-08T19:45:00.000+08:00

yay!
new skin again.
image in courtesy of roxy. :D
yay!
i love this skin aloa alot. oh. i love ALL my skins alot alot!! :D cos all very nice.
stupid me la. until now haven even started to study. haiz. i should jus write a letter in to the school to tell them im not taking the eoy le. hahas. sec ones good la, no eoy. bleahX! nxt week still got cca. haiz. so fed-up.

2005-09-06T19:29:00.000+08:00

arrgh!! qi si wo le.
i already bad mood enough le. still come n offend me!! @#$%^&*!!!
anyway, to the ger called huiqing, i dunno who in the world you are. can u pls explain? wad did i do? post wad blog add? excuse me? wad upright? was posting? do i noe u? did i post ur blog webb on my blog or whatsoever??

arrgh!! i hate *********.

:D

2005-09-06T15:44:00.000+08:00

wells. holidays are here. im so stucked up at home that im too lazy to even step out of it. hahas. :D just finish doing up this blogskin. yeah. pink again. :P received a call from straits times earlier on regarding chasing idols. omg la. so long le they still call me on all these stuffs. kinda raked up my memories, all those chasing of idols things. heheh.. miss maia n daphne loads. as for sly, hmm.. still considering. :D got back my ppr. L1R5 abit 33? hahas. im dumb for goodness sake. very dumb. sometimes when im alone in my room, just feel like jumping down or doing something to end my life or whatsoever. haiz. shall end here.

campus superstar? stupid lar. :D

superstar

2005-09-01T22:51:00.000+08:00

eww. kelly lost. weilian is the superstar. wells, i guess universal music will go popular. play music? never heard of it. hahas. nvm. kelly still rocks. :D

hwa chong.

2005-08-27T16:39:00.000+08:00

enjoyed the exchange program with hwa chong. =] it was definitely an learning experience for all of us. =] thanks to everyone for making this so success!! luvya!!

2005-08-21T18:38:00.000+08:00

proudly done by ME!!

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was browsing through the mediacorp website when i spotted this:
... Sunday is a day to sleep in late, watch morning cartoons and maybe even have a leisurely breakfast at the local McDonald’s.
Not getting scolded by a zealous crude girl, jostled by pushy, adoring teenagers and subjecting my ear drums to high-decibel screams.
But that’s what my colleagues and I got yesterday when we decided to follow the four remaining Project SuperStar Semi-Finalists – Kelly Poon Kar Lai, Chew Sin Huey, Hong Junyang and Tan Wei Lian - on a day of promotions and training.
Location: Radio Gate, MediaCorp
It all started at 10.15am outside the MediaCorp Radio Gate. Before the gate was even in sight, shrieks of “Junyang” have already assaulted us. Running with my video camera in hand, I fidgeted with the buttons before managing to capture footage of girls waving and squealing at the good-looking young contestant.
That’s when trouble started.
The bunch of girls spotted us and at once retreated into a huddle, even opening a blue umbrella hoping to shield themselves from our video cameras. A girl looking to be in her mid-teens then began cursing at us loudly. “T* m* d*! N* b** c*** b**! Still want to take (our video)!” she spewed in a ‘linguistically-admirable’ combination of Mandarin, Hokkien and English.

if zooming in abit more, this is what we can see:

......[after the event the idols went for vocal training while kelly went home for a video trail shoot]...At the destination[vocal training centre], we were soon joined by more fans, who while eager to meet their idols, gave them the privacy and space to have a quick lunch.
Forty-five minutes later, they walk the short way to the vocal training school at the second storey of a restored shophouse.

......Sensing our work here was done, we said our goodbyes and left the building. Outside, the group of fans has seated themselves on the five-foot-way, waiting patiently to see their idols again. We spotted the girl who swore at us earlier and sneakily took a photo of her. Unfortunately she seemed to have a sixth sense when it comes to cameras and turned to look icily at us.
Wary of a direct confrontation, we left hastily. At this rate, I might just have to employ bodyguards of my own.

hahas. funny right? to think she's so famous tt cameramen took her cos she swore. imagine mrs goh seeing this. hahas. =] oh mann. she really has to change. bleahx! shall end here. =]

and to all those people previously tought i was bluffing and maligning *someone* cos she steals, well, i guess you know the truth now. its very hurting if you dun even trust me and rather trust that someone when im your friend? honestly, im disappointed.

happy birthday jessica!

2005-08-20T11:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSICA!

traumatized.

2005-08-18T18:37:00.000+08:00

this morning was damn traumatised by SOMETHING! shant say it as it will only scares me more. =] i wanna say HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO XIANGLING!! i know this is one day late but shall say it anyway!and next HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYLVIA TAN! besties forever!! luvya!! MUaCkS!! <3

smiles -

2005-08-10T09:32:00.000+08:00

yesterday sucked.
ndp parade.
it sucks. :P

a boring sunday

2005-08-07T15:27:00.000+08:00

tomorrow is the ndp thing for school. tuesday will be the real day. suddenly have no mood at all to do all these things. PON? i dunno. most prob nah. cos im nice. hahas. i wun cause two other contingent people to train for nothing. i'll persevere too! must give in all my best! :) npcc this four letter word has been revolving around me these weeks. have been polishing my boots again and again. so tiring!! wonder what will happen tomorrow. got the class performance thing too. it just seems that we aren't ready yet, or perhaps its just me. dunno. -shakes head-

done up a few blogskins these days. completed sylvia's "ai-ai" derrick, did one on jj, a few on "LOVE" theme de. submitted them to blogskins.com le. my current wan is my newest one. i dunno the brushes should credits to who sia. die le. is i take from dunno where de. :) who cares. im so bored at home. dun feel like doing maths. ms quek is driving the senseness out of me lor, she keeps rushing through maths stuff that i cant stand it. haiz. wth.

shall end here today. go watch my vcd "wo de mi mi hua yuan". :) bye!

suck -

2005-08-06T14:02:00.000+08:00

congratulations mann!! SOMEONE called "death_angel" said i SUCK! hahas. that means SOMEONE else suck more. :)

:)

2005-08-02T17:52:00.000+08:00

had nothing to do so came online. flunked everything. haiz :(

2005-07-29T21:54:00.000+08:00

im sad.
im moody.
im sick.
im tired.
im stressed.
im pissed.

i dao-ed them after activity. i dunno what got into me. i was just pissed. i know im bad. its just my usual frequent mood swings. but sometimes, reflections should be considered too. i mean.. nothing. no one will understand.

=] junjie is cute.

2005-07-26T21:02:00.000+08:00

:) lin jun jie is damn cute. hahas. really crazy over him now. not like some people lor, still crazy over her darling w**j***!!! hahas.did a wallpaper of him. :)

=]

2005-07-24T20:33:00.000+08:00

haven been blogging for a number of days le. these days finally have more time to concentrate on studies but its like every alternate day got npcc NDP training. this week more worse, everyday!! tomorrow which is monday got NDP training. tuesday collect uniform. wednesday got servicing rifles for NDP. thursday got training. friday got activity which also got training. then got lesson to teach. i mean me and haiping have to teach lol. hahas. first time working with her. :P im so damn bored now. dint go for the zpop concert yesterday. dint feel like going, no mood. to sylvia and rebecca: sorry orh. paiseh. today wake up also no mood, headache seems to love me so much. haiz. =p just finish the presentation on ***. so tired now. tomorrow still got discursive writing. aiyoh. no mood at all lor. so sian. forgot to bring my maths txtbk home, so no homework for me. bleahX! i wanna watch that newly in cinemas that bug story movie!!! so cute lor!! and sylvia's initial D. hahas. i've watched it twice but she hasn't yet. uh-oh. all my fault la.

gotta write proposal again. so ma fan lor. dun like this system. why must so rigid de. hmmph. ke lian my darling squadmates in the field side. hahas. jiayou wor!!! its just one more year!! :) i still owe people letter. jasline n chuanting. karchian too. hahas. and SOMEONE owes me a 2000-word letter!!! hahas. i hate chemistry. but i hate a-hem more. she's getting on my nerves. i know im dumb. but she doesn't need to make me the leader of my group called "LOVELY2". its such a disgusting name. and i hate her way of grouping. she's dumb lor? still dare say she come from blah blah blah university. she grouped those with LOWER ABILITY in chem into groups called "LOVELY" and good de in "MODEST" and "HUMBLE". so LAME names.

my squad is broken up. hundreds, thousands, millions pieces. haiz. i really want my bonded squad again. its gone. reversible or not, it has to depend. i agree, if everyone puts in a bit, a tiny bit of effort into making our squad bonded, i guess, in less than a month's time, we'll rock the house down. but this little dream of ours seems so far... so far away...

flag raising is such a hassle. i just cant stop laughing at minor things like meiling's "drrr...drrr... clang!" its really hilarious. hahas. im so bad.

anyway, shall end here le. everyone have a nice week ahead!! five more days to saturday again!!! hahas. luvya everybody!! MUaCkS!

poetry

2005-07-21T17:05:00.000+08:00

finally here after eight days of laziness to blog. hahas. xP

had poetry competition today. we won the first prize!!! yipee!! hahas. its like, i really love our class. though we sometimes cant cooperate together but all pieces put together will produce one nice picture!!! lalala. 3p rocks. luvya!

farewell night photos

2005-07-13T22:06:00.000+08:00

heya. jess took ages to finally send me some of the pics mann!! anyway, its the pics from farewell night. n to chuanting ma'am, quickly come online if you wan the pics!! =p

the rest im not gonna put up. lalala. =] bleahx!!

farewell

2005-07-10T21:01:00.000+08:00

yesterday

i awoke with a heavy heart,
i knew it was the day to come.
a bag of troubles pressed me down,
like a mountain upside down.
staring at the presents i've prepared,
i knew i had to say i must be prepared,
be prepared for taking over.
be prepared to saying goodbye.
the games were fun,
the games were nice,
the games were everything,
that could take me away,
away from the thousands,
thousands unwillingness,
thousands sadness.
then was pop.
standing on that stage with hundreds staring back,
a great scene, a memorable scene.
seeing the sec fours leaving one by one,
it was heart wrenching.
for me, for my squadmates.
when it was my turn, i couldn't hear anything,
i only heard my name.
and then i went to sec four squad.
and then my tears flowed.
sadness or not.
i dunno.
what i know is im sad.
next up dinner time.
sec fours clad in sweet mini skirts.
a scene to be remembered.
a scene to be heard.
i miss them.
then was concert time for us.
performances were sweet and touching.
then my turn. i mustered my courage.
went to the center stage.
started the skit.
i knew i was going to break down.
but i held back.
i held my tears back.
then came the songs.
i cried.
everyone cried.
it was saddening.
sobs. sobs. sobs.
knowing the sec fours was my greatest gift.
the fond memories we had, the time we spent.
all so vaguely engraved.
my heart, my soul, everything became one.
i just continued crying... crying..
i miss the sec fours..

stressed up

2005-07-06T19:15:00.000+08:00

had rehearsal that was damn dumb today. and chuanting ma'am and bridget ma'am was damn lame. AND NOISY!! hmmph. -grins at siewen- really tired now. haiz. dunno wad to start with. clit? maths? invitation cards? haiz. so stupid. was quite glad i dun need to be emcee le. invitation card idea apporved le. hahas. finally! evelyn ma'am damn nice mann. luff her loads. =] shant blog any longer, shall go rest and do other stuffs. =]

my dearest squad

2005-07-05T20:43:00.000+08:00

was really irritated and pissed off today. shant talk much about that. decided to blog to actually encourage my dearest squadmates. no matter what, we have to go through this together, the np board, the campfire, and the farewell. let's all jiayou together yeah?

gonna be the emcee for the campfire but yet im head over heels over everything. im so damn worried about the invitation cards and no one else is? can someone please reply me??? oh please, to my dearest darlinggs, please help if you can yeah? we're short of manpower. we really need everyone. last announcement: last call for the cards, if not, im doing it myself again.

im stressed. damn stressed up. its difficult to balanced school work and this together. i cant juggle between everything, i owe homework that piles up to ten over pieces of undone work? wth. someone please kill me. i rather die. im going berserk. perhaps this is a chance to prove my worthiness? and to prove some others' ________?? i dunno. just take that im crapping.

farewell presents

2005-07-01T20:13:00.001+08:00

went to ikea with sylvia, rebecca and xiangling today. damn tired. bought alot of stuffs there!! =] hahas. costed us, ermm.. a bomb? hahas. hope everything goes on smoothly for farewell!! =] luvya!

sec four farewell

2005-06-27T20:25:00.000+08:00

haiz. i cant imagine my squad is taking over so soon. next week. nest week and we'll be in charge. it all seems like a fairytale, gone with the wind le. i can still remember vaguely in sec one when we had dawn n shihan for NCOs. then last year we had joy n stephanie, this year, our darlingg zoee n jasline!! im kinda worried for our squad, i mean that i feel that none of us are ready, yepp, not at all, and we have to take over so soon. OMG! everyone is still in the mood of "post-probation-blues" and no one is prepared, yet we have to act like we're prepared and we're ready. its fake. i hate it. i love my squad. but its breaking up. i wan it back like two three years ago, sec one squad 03. i love it back then. recalling all the memories we had together, from surviving through numerous camps and trainings, to having our dearest huijun leaving us for NJC, the process was long, yet enjoyable. our tears shed together, our happiness shared together. everything seems like nothing now, everything is nothing but just faded memories that's disappearing any moment.

i shall be honest and say my heartfelt words now. dearest squadmates, some of you changed. or i should say quite some number changed. we're a squad. we've been together for three years. we know some of you have your job to do, but pls dun go overboard, some of your attitude are pissing everyone of us out, we're pissed, we're irritated. dun take us like juniors, we aren't your juniors, we're your squadmates. we do listen to you all, but do you all take time off to try to listen to us? yes, i agree with wad CIs said, if the person cant change, we'll just have to accept her. the problem now is, the ratio of the opposition against the preposition is a big difference. im on the opposition, sylvia is too, rebecca is too. perhaps you might not know who im talking about, but those in the opposition will know who i am talking about. im not pin-pointing anyone, but have you all spare a thought for us at all? being embarassed in front of juniors is no big deal, we had alot of that, but only knowing how to critisize us and not understanding us is a more hurtful thing. many of us are hurt by harsh words of you all, you may not have noticed it, but the world is changing every minute, people is changing every minute. changes are inevitable, changing for the better is good, but the negative side ain't good at all.

i miss the old you. i miss my old squadmates. we're taking over soon. next week. its fast, as fast as lightning, we've all been trying to grasp our breath. but it just seems so hard, so difficult...

i really hope we can all work together, together as one. hope you all understand. =]

- l0tsa l0ve -
- j0anna -

photos on initial D

2005-06-26T20:13:00.000+08:00

my CREATIONS on initial D!! =]

no title -

2005-06-26T11:40:00.000+08:00

replies to tagboard:

to my nicet nicest meimei: sorry bout the letter. =] but im nicer!

to tongtong: sure! i'll link ya! but i dun have your blog address! =]

to ahgeng: yes! initial D rocks! i love edison! he's mine! lalala! =]

to someone: thanks. but its already in the centre. =]

to guest: thanks alot. luvya! =]

watched initial D again yesterday. had npcc in the morning, check uniform and then farewell prep. haiz. talking about farewell prep, wanna say a big sorry to my dearest squadmates - PFIs. just jiayous all the way!! =] will really miss the sec fours, they're damn nice seh. then after npcc, went to J8 with siewen n liping to watch initial D. i kinda slept through some parts cos i watch before le, then kinda bored. but once got edison, POOP! i woke up! hahas. cos he's cute.

to those who haven watched it yet, or to those who dun wan to watch it, pls do think thrice and go watch!! its really such a nice movie!! every cinema is almost fully booked sia!! its a MUST WATCH MOVIE!! hahas. i love shawn! i love jay! but i love edison MORE!! =]

blogskins.

2005-06-24T18:50:00.000+08:00

i guess my computer hates blogskins.com sia. i just cant go into the website. it says fatal error. -_-" diaos. made some more new skins on initial d le but i just cant post them up. hmmph! wth. nonetheless, the below are two of the skins i newly made, if ure interested in the blogskin, tag my board to tell me. luvya!

initial d.

2005-06-24T15:30:00.000+08:00

arrgh. had diarrhoes for the whole day. @#$%^& my stomach really hate me sia. =] hahas. anyway, found some initial D pics on the internet and i really love them, enjoy!

initial d.

2005-06-24T00:16:00.000+08:00

had chinese oral today. it sucked for hell loads mann, and my teacher was wangshanshan. -_-" hate her.

after that went to j8 with ahgeng to check if tickets for initial d at bishan golden village was still available for the 4.40pm show. stupid sia, abit two theatre open for initial d yet full. = arrgh = then we quickly went down to jubilee to meet wanyin, peiying n elise cos they bought the tix le. show was at 5.20pm. had some drinks then went to popular to shop. then went upstairs to wait for admittance. saw chuanting mam with her mummy, they were watching mr n mrs smith. =] then went in and sat for very long then the show started. OMG! EDISON CHEN DEFINITELY ROCKS MY WORLD!! he's sooooo damnit cute! fcuk. i l0ve him to bits. hahas. n im beginning to fall in love with jay too. n shawn also. =] hahas. the story rocks my socks and the actors were all so cool!! i LOVE edison!!! MUaCkS!! luv him loads!!

just finish watching the superstar results show. damn sad sia, kinda cried cos my darlingg darryl got voted out. haiz. its such a pity. he's really cute and i believe his singing rocks more than some other. =] but nonetheless, wanna wish him all the best in his career and i will support him forever!! =]

edison chen is cute!

2005-06-22T12:08:00.000+08:00

yay! i finally saw him! =] edison chen is CUTE!!! arrgh! (:

stuck at home!

2005-06-21T13:03:00.000+08:00

supposedly going out today to see my darlingg edison chen, ta-dah, but it was cancelled. -nvm- smiles*//

anyway, i've got a new friendster account. the previous one is full le, so whoever is reading my blog now, a-hem, add me @ brokenedd_@hotmail.com yeah? thanks.

next topic, jue dui superstar!! pls support sebastian, weijian,, darryl, silver and chanel yeah? i simply love sebastian and weijian n darryl cos they are just so CUTE!! yes, cute. i said cute. =] nah,nah. they shuai. -lol- -_-" still remember that day at the chalet wor, the first day (thursday) got superstar mah, then everyone was like screaming when sebastian and weijian came out. the scream did not sounded "arrgh" or whatsoever, it sounded " eh!! this one cute!!! - hearts melt - faints - hen3 cute seh!!" hahas. this is 3 purity. and that's why i love them so much.

talking about the chalet, im beginning to feel so despo-ic. hahas. cos on the second day we went escape, then me, chuyan and jocelyn ( only the three of us was crazy boy-hunting ) was like "eh, he quite cute seh!!". hahas. first target was when we went through the counter, there was this guy who has nicely spiked hair, we simply love it mann. but his looks hor, ermm... so-so lolx. then we dunno go where and where.. blah blah.. then me and chuyan and xinru and peiying went to take the revolution. then chuyan suddenly nudge me ask me to see one of those on the ride de, then i told her yeah, he's cute, but attached. hahas. -_-" then we suddenly saw the person in charge of the revolution de, ( you know? the person who goes around securing your seat belts and pressing the start button guy? )arrgh!! he's so cute. ermm.. but from some angle that is. then when it was our turn, we sat onto one of the machine and he came around fastening the seat locks mah, then i was totally mesmerised by him mann, SOOOO CUTE!! and he smiled!! -faints- omg. hahas. but later hor, me n chuyan, shocked lolx. ( this part better leave it sensored off ) then we play and play lolx. then chuyan wanted this huge huge bear. then she went to play. who knows, the counter guy damn shuai!! arrgh!! hahas. this time round, many of us agree that he's the most shuai one. kekex. - the end -

im really tired now. ta-das. off for my lunch now! BYE!

(:

2005-06-18T13:59:00.000+08:00

hey 3 purity peeps at the chalet, this is the photo i told you people. (:

the centre girl is my friend whereas the left one is her sis. and the right one you all can go enjoy. (: luvya!

(:

2005-06-10T21:25:00.000+08:00

okay. this my 3rd skin in four days. (: heheh.. not bad bahx. kekex. i love this one most la. cos i think its plainer lolx. budden, i'll ocme up with nicer ones. (: after im back frm overseas, that is. (: im damn bored at home sia. no mood to do hmwk so do blogskin lolx. now doing my father's meeting notes. im like so damn nice to volunteer to be his personal secretary who translates all his minutes into chinese. ta-dah. that's how nice i am.

serviced rifles today. with sohteng and rebecca and shuxiang. before that we showed chuanting ma`am how to whip rope. then she was like joking all along, hurhurs, damn nice. then she say sohteng bully shuxiang and made her service rifles with us. hahas. yarr lol. then during servicing rifles, that sohteng keep mumbling about eating lunch... arrgh!! she arh, damn noisy. then after we finished, which was quite early, i sms-ed chuanting ma`am and told her that we'll pass the keys to shuxiang and she'll pass to her during dry shoot. then she replied me in damn funny way. hahas. sohteng n rebecca n me n shuxiang was laughing all the way from school to macs. then went to ramen with rebecca. then went upstairs popular to buy envelope to mail the QM room storelist to yuhan ma`am.

im damn tired now. sians. keep editing the blogskin jus now. i did two blogskins. one was this present one, the other is i upload onto blogskins le but not using it. (: got some people request to ask me make blogskins personally for them. but i cannot. so sorry. its either i do for myself or i do and upload onto blogskins.com. im so sorry but i wun adhere to any requests. sorry. and thanks to those who loved my blogskins. (:

love, j0anna-

=] yay!!

2005-06-08T18:26:00.000+08:00

my new blogskin again!! hahas. im such a genius mann. ta-dah. okay, im just joking. i cant be. hahas. chatting with my dearest stacie meimei now. (: she's really fun.

lastly, i miss everyone!!

=] new skin.

2005-06-07T07:21:00.000+08:00

wells. im doing this blogskin now at 7 am. =] im really bored.